Title: Dear Ninomiya KazunariAuthor: Me (Carmen)Length: Drabble (526)
Genre: Angst(!!)Rating: PGDisclaimer: I own only the plot.~Pairings: OhmiyaSummary: Ohno writes a letter to Nino.
**I'm starting my exams VERY soon and won't have time for another LONG while before another fic is up! So I'm going to post this, just something small and hopefully enough until I'm back. ^^ Sorry, it's so short and angsty!
Dear Ninomiya Kazunari,
We met just this year and yet, I think I’ve fallen for your charms. I’m not sure if what I feel is love. But whenever you’re around, I can’t help but stare into your brown eyes; which always manages to pull me in. I can’t help but look for you wherever I go. I always try to find out more about you; to know more about you. I like to hear my name coming from your beautiful voice. I like the way you look at me. I like the way you make me laugh. I like the way you help you when I’m in need.
I was thinking of asking you out on a date, I never really made up my mind. But now I’m too late. By the time I’ve made up my mind, you were already taken. I should’ve been faster. I should’ve tried harder. What should I do now? I’m guessing this feeling actually IS love. Does that mean I should forget you now?
I try, I try so hard. But it’s difficult. I can’t stop thinking about you. I know that you have someone else now, but I still can’t help but think I still have a chance. Maybe I do, maybe I don’t, but maybe I’m also scared to be hurt?
I see you and him together and I feel pain. I’ve never felt this before. I feel numb, and I feel dead. Is this normal for a person with a one-sided love? You seem so happy with him. I don’t have the courage to talk to you again; in case of showing my emotions. I don’t want to trouble you. I just want you to be happy, but does that mean I have to sacrifice my own happiness? Why is love so difficult?
If I ever see you, I’ll turn the other way. If you ever talk to me, I’ll ignore you. If you want to meet with me, I’ll tell you I’m busy. When YOU start ignoring me, I’ll show you how happy I am. In truth though, on the inside, I’m breaking into tiny pieces that can’t be fixed.
I decided today that I will give up on you. I can’t deal with the pain anymore. It hurts too much and I can’t bear with it. I don’t know how long it will take to forget you but I’ll try. Who knows, maybe I’ll never forget you, or maybe I’ll forget you tomorrow. But I know it’s going to be hard.
I hope you’re happy with him. I never want to see you sad. Maybe one day, I’ll speak to you again, and we’ll be friends again. But that would be very far in the future. Please don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine. Even though I’m breaking on the inside, I am happy that you’re happy.
I’m sorry for loving you.
I put down the pen and crumple up the letter and throw it in the garbage. One-sided loves are like this, huh? I try to hold in my tears, but they slowly start to fall one by one; like my heart.