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TitleSecond Chance
Author: Me (Carmen)
Length: Chaptered (1/maybe 10?)
Genre: Romance, au, angst, fluff, deathfic, slight supernatural

Rating: PG13 (Will change to NC-17 later)
Disclaimer: I own only the plot.~
Pairings: Ohmiya
Summary: Ohno dies, and Nino's never had the chance to confess. Now he has a second chance.

Warning/Notes: Well, hello there! This is my first Ohmiya chaptered fic. So please be kind to me.~ This fic was inspired by JYJ's "In Heaven" MV. I have a few things you might want to take notice of while you're considering reading this fic. The chapters may be short sometimes, I tend to run out of ideas. But don't worry, I have this whole fic planned out, so hopefully, everything runs smoothly. Also, it might take me awhile to get chapters out at times. You might be waiting a while for an update, or it could even be the next day, depends on how fast I finish a chapter. I'm also reminding you, this is a death fic, sooo yeah. I'm not going to give away anything. (; This is also unbeta-d​ so there will be mistakes. Also, I'm a bit iffy about posting this fic (it's kind of my most favorite, even though I just started but I can tell it's going to hold a special place in my heart) so I really hope you do like it! I think that is everything. Sheesh, I sure know how to ramble xD. Anyways! Enjoy reading and please do comment and tell me what you think!




Chapter 1

September 19th

It’s regret. The feeling of regret is so strong it suffocates me. It’s pain. The feeling of pain is enough to eat me whole. It’s love. The feeling of loving you has taken up my whole being that when you left, I didn’t know what to feel anymore.

                Technically it’s been about a month, but for me it seems like it was just yesterday. The time has been going incredibly slow or more like it has stopped. I don’t know what I should do to get over you. I don’t think I can be happy again. You were the source of my smiles, but now you’re gone. Who is going to be there for me when I’m sad? Who is going to hold me when I’m lonely? Who is going to love me unconditionally?

                The one thing I regret the most was me not telling you I loved you. If only I knew time would run out for you, I would’ve told you. But I was scared; scared of you rejecting me, scared of our friendship breaking, scared of you leaving, but you ended up leaving me anyways.

                Tell me, who did you think of while you were breathing your last breath? Was it me? I always suspected that you might’ve loved me too, but maybe we were both afraid of crossing that invisible line. I know I should’ve gone with you that day to go eat ramen, but I was too stubborn and wanted to finish a game. Maybe I could’ve prevented the accident, maybe I could’ve pushed you out of the way, maybe we could’ve gone somewhere else. I was stupid, so so stupid. Now I’ve lost my best friend to a drunk driver that had to cross that red light and hit you. God, Satoshi, do you know how much I miss you?  Do you know how much I’m hurting? If only I could go back and tell you how much I loved you. If only I could have done everything I’ve wanted to since I’ve figured out my feelings for you. If only we could’ve lived a blissful life together. If only, if only I could go back in time. Tonight would be the same as any night; crying myself to sleep while thinking of you.

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                I wake up with swollen, red rimmed eyes. I sigh, maybe Satoshi dying was a dream, a horrible horrible dream. But it wasn’t, it was real. I get out of bed and get ready for work. Like always, the routine of everyday is the same since you have gone; going around like a zombie. But recently, I have been walking a different route; I go through the route that passes the beach you always loved. The reason I go? Maybe it’s to have hope; maybe to see you there once again. I take the key and stuff it into my pocket and close the door to my apartment.

                Today, the sky and sun is shining and the air feels different. It feels warm and full, like when you used to be here. When you were here, the sun would always engulf me and make everything bright and warm, or maybe it was just you that made me feel that way. For some reason, I don’t feel the usual sadness and my body feels light. I like the feeling and I wish it would stay forever, it’s like you’re back. But I know that couldn’t be true, you died a month ago. I reach the beach and I see a tanned figure facing the water, sitting down on the sand. I freeze. What? No, it can’t be. I rub my eyes harshly, thinking that my vision was playing tricks on me. But the figure in front of the water didn’t go away. Before I even knew it, my feet are running.

                I stop just behind you and I’m panting. The “Satoshi” like person turned around and I gasp. He looks just like Satoshi.

“Yes?” He says.

“Sa—Satoshi?” I say; holding my breath. He blinks slowly and cocks his head to the side, that’s what he does when he’s confused, and nods.

“Yeah, I am. But how do you know my name?” He asks with a confused but oh so cute expression.

“You, you don’t know me?” I ask heartbroken. I must be dreaming. This is impossible; he can’t be in front of me right now.

 “No, I’m sorry, but you seem like a nice person.” He smiles, that smile, the one that always makes my heart skip a beat, and sticks his hand out for a handshake. I take it, and it feels so familiar.

“Ohno Satoshi,” he says while moving our hands up and down. My mind still can’t seem to function and I nod fervently. He giggles, and I realize how much I’ve missed the sound. I can’t help but pull him closer and engulf him in a hug. The feelings of being in Satoshi’s arms overwhelm me and I’m crying.

“If this is a dream, I really hope it never ends. I really don’t care if this is some alternate universe that you don’t know me. But I’m glad that you’re here again. I really am Satoshi. I’ve missed you so much. Never leave me again.” I say. He probably didn’t hear me since my mouth is muffled by his shoulder and I’m holding onto him so hard it must be hard for him to breathe, but I couldn’t really care at this moment. Just having a breathing and alive Satoshi in my arms right now is enough for me to die happy. I’m expecting for my alarm clock to ring any second now to wake me up and bring me back to the harsh reality of Satoshi being dead, but it doesn’t happen.

Instead, Satoshi speaks, “Um, I guess this is your way of saying hi? It’s cute and all, but you’re kind of suffocating me.” I pull away unwillingly.

“Sorry.” I end up saying; and I feel my cheeks start getting warm, dammit, I must be blushing right now.

 “It’s okay, you’re cute, but aren’t you going to introduce yourself?” He smiles that heart pounding smile again.

“Ninomiya Kazunari, but you can call me Nino.” I smile back, his is too contagious.

“Well Nino, it’s nice to meet you. But I must be getting back now; I have to get to work soon.” He says.

 At the mention of work, I quickly take out my cellphone to make sure I’m not late. But what gets me flustered is not the time, but the date. It’s July 19th, a month before Satoshi’s accident. I gasp and think back to last night. No, it couldn’t be. I actually went back in time?! But wait, what does this mean? Satoshi is actually the real Satoshi and he hasn’t died yet? He also doesn’t know me. So does that mean, I have a chance to change things? That must be it! The gods, or the universe or whatever it is, is giving me a second chance! Getting lost in my thoughts, I didn’t know he was already walking away.

“Wait!” I call out.

He turns around and says, “Yes?”

“Can I get your number and um, can we meet again?” I ask with my heart beating rapidly, what if this Satoshi is different.

 “Sure.” He walks closer and I meet him half way. “I’ll think we’ll be great friends Nino.” He then turns around and I’m left with a tingling feeling. Of course he would be the same. It’s not like he’s a different person. The only thing that changed is the time went back.

Even though Satoshi doesn’t know me, it’s okay. What I did know was that, we can be acquainted again; we could be just like we were before he died, and that there’s all the time in the world now. I smile and I go to work with a goofy grin. What I didn’t know was that there were two people who watched the whole meeting from the beginning and now following me as I skip with light feet to work.




Date: 2012-07-06 06:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kamenashi05.livejournal.com
Omg a new fic yay! And it's chaptered!! I'm on the bus now so it's kinda hard to read >< will read it soon! :D

Date: 2012-07-06 04:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kamenashi05.livejournal.com
omg im getting so excited and im already looking forward to the next chapter!! :D and im dying to know who those two ppl are! D:

Date: 2012-07-06 06:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yaaay, thanks. <3
And don't worry, will be soon! Halfway done the chapter! :D
You'll know their identities in the next chapter. (;

Date: 2012-07-07 07:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kamenashi05.livejournal.com
Yay! I'll be waiting patiently for it! ^^

Date: 2012-07-06 06:35 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] neenashareefa.livejournal.com
Dead!Ohno ... *tears*

Date: 2012-07-06 06:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
I know!
Poor Nino. ):
Thanks for reading.~ <3

Date: 2012-07-06 11:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] imilandoo.livejournal.com
Oh my God, this first chapter is really beautiful! I'm going to love this fic so much *__*
I love your writing style!

Date: 2012-07-06 06:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay!
I really do hope you do!
And thanks so much! :DD
<33

Date: 2012-07-06 01:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] permatasari.livejournal.com
i'm sure this fic will become GREAT fic !!
from start this fic already made me love read it over and over...
i will wait patiently for the next nice story ^^V
thanks as always m(_ _)m

Date: 2012-07-06 06:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay! I hope it becomes great too! ^0^
Don't worry, I won't make you wait too long.~
Thanks for reading, like always. <3
:DD

Date: 2012-07-06 01:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] satonari83.livejournal.com
who is the two poeple??? OMG,,,is it bad people,,,,

and is really sad but sweet story,,,
wait for next chapter,,,

and thank you for sharing,,,

Date: 2012-07-06 06:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Hehe, not telling.~
Yeah, it's kind of bittersweet, ne? ^^
I won't make you wait too long.~

Thanks for reading. <33

Date: 2012-07-06 03:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dazehyde.livejournal.com
Oh my~ this is really beautiful! ♥
I'm going to attach to this fic very much! ♥___♥
Can't wait for the next part! Update soon, pleaseeeee... ♥
Thanx for writing and sharing, dear~ ^____^

Date: 2012-07-06 06:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay!
Don't worry, I will! ♥
Thanks for reading! ^^

Date: 2012-07-06 04:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] satoshilove.livejournal.com
interesting
love it

Date: 2012-07-06 06:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yayay!
Thanks for reading.~ ^^

Date: 2012-07-06 05:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ninonia-earth.livejournal.com
Yay!!!an ohmiya fic :) thank youuu

Date: 2012-07-06 06:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yup!
Ohmiya! ♥
Thanks for reading.~

Date: 2012-07-06 05:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] edneichon.livejournal.com
sugeee

I love ohmiya, and this story *0*
and who is this new "Ohno Satoshi"? i love we he say to Nino "you’re cute" kyaaa

i really want read more

thanks for the fic :D

Date: 2012-07-06 06:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay!
Hopefully, when the next chapter is posted, you'll be less confused. ^^
Don't worry, I won't make you wait too long.~
Thanks for reading! :D

Date: 2012-07-07 03:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] litofroggy.livejournal.com
This world is amazing~

I wanna read more! So intriguing!! :DD

I'll be waiting~

Date: 2012-07-08 06:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay!
Thank you! ♥
I won't make you wait too long.~

Date: 2012-07-07 03:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maru-sei.livejournal.com
Eeeeh? Eeeeh?
Waaaa, what happened actually?
Can't wait to read the next chapter...

Date: 2012-07-08 06:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Hehe, not telling.~
Will be posted soon!
Still working on the chapter though. ^^

Date: 2012-07-07 04:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] qinaaptx.livejournal.com
You got one more reader, waiting for the next chapter.

It's very funny Nino saying that much word to surprised and clueless oh-Chan!

Date: 2012-07-08 06:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay, thanks for reading! ♥

Date: 2012-07-07 06:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jutjull.livejournal.com
Woow!
Good I began reading this!
The first chapter is beautiful, I wasnt really expecting this end of 1st chapter~
Ill wait for the next chapter :3


Date: 2012-07-08 06:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Hehe, why thank you. ♥
Will post soon! ^^

Date: 2012-07-08 02:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yumi-usagi.livejournal.com
Yay for chaptered fic from you XD
At first when I read that it's a dead fic I;m kind of reluctant but actually it's cute when they meet again :D
Hope they will be together at the end ^.^
Thanks for sharing! >:D

Date: 2012-07-08 06:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay, for you reading. xD
Not telling what happens, hehe.~ Surprise. (;

Thanks! ♥

Date: 2012-07-29 03:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] himitsu-17.livejournal.com
It's so interesting!
I can't Wait to read more!
Thanks for writing and sharing!

Date: 2012-08-04 03:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] carmenw84.livejournal.com
Yay, thanks! ^^
I'm glad you think so.~
Next chapter is up. (: Although it's short and no Ohmiya. T__T
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