carmenw84 | Broken: Chapter 4 (Reply)

Title: Broken
Author: Me (Carmen)
Length: [4/?]
Genre: Romance, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I own only the plot.~
Pairings: OC/Nino, OC/Ohno
Summary: Amy has a heartbreaking past. The only one who's broken into her circle is Nino but she doesn't dare say she loves him; for fear of losing him. // Ohno has feelings for Amy, but doesn't want to be Nino's rival. // Nino loves Amy but doesn't realize it.

Chapter 4

“Nino?? Why are you here?” I ask very surprised. He pouts. “Did you just say Oh-chan?” “No, you’re just drunk so you heard incorrectly.” I say trying not to sound guilty. Wait, guilty? I have nothing to be guilty for. Or do I?... “So, uh… tell me, why are you here? Did you accidentally mistake this as your apartment?” I say going out and taking a hold of his body making sure he doesn’t fall over. “Noo~ I came to see Amy!” He says beaming. My heart rate starts getting faster. No no, this can’t be happening. I might take advantage of him if he continues being this cute. That’ll be bad, very bad. “Well, thanks. But you should go back to your apartment and sleep. You have work tomorrow right?” I say while trying to drag him along. But he holds his ground in front of my door and then pulls me along with him inside MY apartment. “Wait! This is the wrong way!” I yell.

“Okay, okay. You can sleep in my bed, I’ll sleep on the couch.” I say trying not to get embarrassed. “No, I want to sleep with Amy~.” He whines ever so cutely and pulling me along. I groaned in frustration. Nino, don’t do this to me. As we got to my bedroom we both tripped as I was trying to get his grip off me and we landed on my bed. “Ouch” I mumbled since I hit my head on the headboard. What I noticed when I opened my eyes was a very drunk and adorable Nino on top of me. Oh shit.

“Amy…” he says very seductively. No no, Nino. Not now, not this. I won’t be able to hold back my feelings. I wonder can he hear my heartbeat. I know right now all I can hear is our breathes against each other and the sound of my heart hammering in my chest. “Wait, Nino. You’re drunk.” I say trying to get him off me, but his hold on me just tightens. “Amy, why didn’t you give me a hug when you left earlier and why did you look so pained?” he says with that cute little pout. Because of you, Nino. I sighed. “That was just your imagination and sorry, I forgot to give you a hug.” “You know Amy, I have this weird feeling right now and I don’t know what it is.” I gasp. “I’m going to kiss you now.” “Wait, wha” Before I can say finish speaking, Nino moves his face even closer. I can feel his heart now and it’s also beating very fast. Does this mean he has feelings for me or is it because he’s drunk right now? He brings his hand up to gently brush away the hair on my face and brings his lips to my lips. Our lips are perfectly molded together and we engage in a sweet kiss at first but then the pace picks up and we’re both kissing each other like it’s the end of the world. The whole time, my heart and lips feel like they were on fire. We break away for some precious air and he was about to kiss me again while his hand moves under my shirt. I’m snapped back to reality when I feel his hand just inches away from my breasts. “Wait” I say breathing hard. “We can’t do this.” “Why, don’t you want me Amy?” Nino says also breathing hard. “I… I don’t want this.” I don’t want to do it with you if all it means is a one night stand. He sighs and gets up off me looking hurt. Sorry, I can’t be the girl for you right now. It’s going to hurt me so much more if we do it than how much you’re hurting right now because you have no one to sleep with. “Okay, sorry. I’ll go” while he also mumbles a goodnight and see you tomorrow before stumbling out.

I hear the door close and I’m left there lying on top of my bed still breathing hard and tracing over my lips where we had that amazing kiss. That would have been bad. What if I never said to stop, what would happen to our friendship? Would he hate me and leave me? I really need him by my side right now; I don’t like being alone, not again. That’s why I can’t tell him my feelings. “I can’t lose you Nino.” I whisper out loud in pain. I clutch my breaking heart and try to fall asleep.

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I stumble out of the apartment and drop to my knees outside. What was that amazing feeling? And why did I feel so hurt when she said to stop? Was it because I had a little too much to drink and I felt naturally high? I’m very drunk right now but I can still recall every single thing that just happened. I kissed Amy. Damn. What do I do? I don’t want it to get awkward between us. She’s too good of a friend for me to lose. She’s the only person who I can show my true self too. Wait, before that. Didn’t she say Oh-chan when she opened the door for me? Why did she say his name? Was he there? What is this tightening feeling inside me? I get up and slowly stumble to my apartment and inside. I throw off my clothes and jump into bed. It’s too much to think about right now, I’ll wait till I’m sober. But tomorrow, what should I do when I see Amy? Ah, I know. I’ll just pretend it never happened. That’s possible, I was very drunk and don’t remember anything. Yes, that’s better. That’s what I’ll do. I get more lost in my thoughts and quickly fall asleep in the process.