[Drabble] Dear Ninomiya Kazunari

[carmenw84]

Title: Dear Ninomiya Kazunari
Author: Me (Carmen)
Length: Drabble (526)
Genre: Angst(!!)
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I own only the plot.~
Pairings: Ohmiya
Summary: Ohno writes a letter to Nino.

**I'm starting my exams VERY soon and won't have time for another LONG while before another fic is up! So I'm going to post this, just something small and hopefully enough until I'm back. ^^ Sorry, it's so short and angsty! 
**Enjoy!~

Dear Ninomiya Kazunari,

We met just this year and yet, I think I’ve fallen for your charms. I’m not sure if what I feel is love. But whenever you’re around, I can’t help but stare into your brown eyes; which always manages to pull me in. I can’t help but look for you wherever I go. I always try to find out more about you; to know more about you. I like to hear my name coming from your beautiful voice. I like the way you look at me. I like the way you make me laugh. I like the way you help you when I’m in need.

                I was thinking of asking you out on a date, I never really made up my mind. But now I’m too late. By the time I’ve made up my mind, you were already taken. I should’ve been faster. I should’ve tried harder. What should I do now? I’m guessing this feeling actually IS love. Does that mean I should forget you now?

                I try, I try so hard. But it’s difficult. I can’t stop thinking about you. I know that you have someone else now, but I still can’t help but think I still have a chance. Maybe I do, maybe I don’t, but maybe I’m also scared to be hurt?

                I see you and him together and I feel pain. I’ve never felt this before. I feel numb, and I feel dead. Is this normal for a person with a one-sided love? You seem so happy with him. I don’t have the courage to talk to you again; in case of showing my emotions. I don’t want to trouble you. I just want you to be happy, but does that mean I have to sacrifice my own happiness? Why is love so difficult?

                If I ever see you, I’ll turn the other way. If you ever talk to me, I’ll ignore you. If you want to meet with me, I’ll tell you I’m busy. When YOU start ignoring me, I’ll show you how happy I am. In truth though, on the inside, I’m breaking into tiny pieces that can’t be fixed.

                I decided today that I will give up on you. I can’t deal with the pain anymore. It hurts too much and I can’t bear with it. I don’t know how long it will take to forget you but I’ll try. Who knows, maybe I’ll never forget you, or maybe I’ll forget you tomorrow. But I know it’s going to be hard.

                I hope you’re happy with him. I never want to see you sad. Maybe one day, I’ll speak to you again, and we’ll be friends again. But that would be very far in the future. Please don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine. Even though I’m breaking on the inside, I am happy that you’re happy.

                I’m sorry for loving you.

                                                                                                                                                Ohno Satoshi

I put down the pen and crumple up the letter and throw it in the garbage. One-sided loves are like this, huh? I try to hold in my tears, but they slowly start to fall one by one; like my heart.

Comments

[kirameki_mei]

Hi!
I've just read our message! I'll answer it soon!

Ne.....This is SOOO sad! T______T
*crying*
But I like your writing! <3
The way you describe his feelings...His broken heart...It's pretty.

Oh! I'll start my exams next week, and in the moment I just want to throw all my books through the window! XDDDD
Good luck in your exams!

And thank you for sharing!

[carmenw84.livejournal.com]

No rush. ^^

Aww, I'm happy you like it! :D

I agree with your way of thinking! Haha.
Good luck to you too!!

Thanks for reading and that encouragement! ♥

hug ohchan

[satonari83.livejournal.com]

this is too sad,,,,*sobed*,,,,why nino ignore ohchan a way,,,,
ne' hissasiburi,,,,,are u busy,,,,
hope u have a nice day,,,,

and thanks for your update,,,,

Re: hug ohchan

[carmenw84.livejournal.com]

Hii!! :DD

Ahh, I'm a little busy. ):
Exams make people stressed! Gah! Dx

Thanks for reading! ♥

[yaoilicious-53.livejournal.com]

Ouch, the angst...

It's beautiful, though xD

Good luck on your exams!

[carmenw84.livejournal.com]

Thanks for reading and the encouragement! ♥

[maru-sei.livejournal.com]

What a sweet angst... *sob* *sob*

Ganbatte!! XD

[carmenw84.livejournal.com]

Bittersweet, eh? :P

Thanks!! ♥

[maru-sei.livejournal.com]

Yea... :'(

Go beat the boss exams and save the world :P

[carmenw84.livejournal.com]

Hahah, thanks darling. ♥

[mina-sweet-chan.livejournal.com]

It's sad ! T_T

It hurts when you see the person you love is already with someone else. It's like, there's no more chance.
Why Nino ? Why didn't you realize that Oh-chan is on love with you ?
If I ever see you, I’ll turn the other way. If you ever talk to me, I’ll ignore you. If you want to meet with me, I’ll tell you I’m busy. When YOU start ignoring me, I’ll show you how happy I am. That was the saddest !

It's was perfect dear ♥ ~

Me too, I have exams. It's stressing. Good luck :)

[carmenw84.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you liked it! ♥
Good luck on your exams too!

Thanks for reading babygirl.~ ♥ (;

[mina-sweet-chan.livejournal.com]

Thank you ! I'll do my best \o/

You're welcome. ~

[sksuki.livejournal.com]

No! Oh chan! don't give up! Nino can pay back your love if you continue your fight for loving Nino.
but i'm curious about something... Nino with someone? who?

thanks for sharing :D

[carmenw84.livejournal.com]

No one in particular.
I'll leave that person to your imagination. ^^

Thanks for reading. <3